New song: Teardrops & Scars
19/09/2009
There’re teardrops on my window,
There’re scars all over my wrists,
I can’t stop thinking about you,
And how the pain feels like bliss,
I can’t help it,
I’m imperfect,
You were making me better again,
At least that’s what you said.
Am I really hopeless?
You can keep on trying,
Every punch was the best kiss,
And no, I’m not lying.
Break my bones,
Scar my body,
Make me cry,
Make me right.
Even if it takes all night.
There’re teardrops behind my footsteps,
There’re scars all over my heart,
I can’t stop thinking about us,
And how I wish we weren‘t apart,
Come back and fix me!
Because I just can’t fix myself.
I need your help,
But am I worth it?
Your slaps still tingle,
The bruises will not die,
Your words still linger,
And God, it feels so right.
You’ve moved on now,
I’m unfixable,
Imperfect,
Unpredictable,
And just not worth it.
There’re teardrops on my deathbed,
There’re scars all over my life,
I can’t stop thinking about you,
And how death is the way to make myself right.
Juiced 6:03 am
Cheese Sandwhiches and Blocking Things Out.
18/09/2009
Nathan had a cheese sandwhich yesterday.
Daisy slapped it out of his hand.
He then picked it up off the floor, and threw it at Daisy.
She stumbled back alot, then fell into a tree.
Thinking about it now.. it wasn't that funny.
& also, i may seem happy alot.
This is because my head is very good at blocking things out.
So every time i try to think of the VERY VERY bad thing that is VERY VERY BAD,
My head takes a totally different direction.
It makes life copable, y'know.
(:
Juiced 9:46 am
Dewi - Stud.
Dewi is, let's face it. Dewi is one of the less attractive boys in my year.
So why is he always dating someone?
There was one time, when he was seeing Chloe L, Chloe S, Some wierd Year 7 loser, and Morgan. Then he asked me out. Like, WTF?
Dewi is a Stud. That's all there is to it.
Juiced 9:39 am
Oops.
I keep picturing Lewis topless now.
This is bad. :|
(Not the mental image, just how slutty i am being atm)
(The mental image is, infact, pretty good.)
(BAD JAMIE. STOP IT.)
(Noooooooooooooo....)
Juiced 9:33 am
Good Day?
Today i got asked out- twice.
Baha, i'm such a stud muffin.
Me and Nathan have been "bonding" lately.
As in,
AAAAARGH£RIPHONQ |QCHOGX PWIH P|$"
Sorry, sister is pissing me off and i need to vent my anger somewhere.
Anyway, as in,
Him copying my ICT work, flicking a rubber dog's head across to each other in Tech, and playing Tag in tech. (Sitting down, obv.)
I guess he took that as flirting?
IDK. But Tyler asked me if i would go out with Nathan, i said no.
Not because he's a bad guy or anything, and not even because i'm shallow (baha.), but 'cause i'd rather him as a freind.
Like with Sean.
Hannah BEGGED me to go out with him last year, so i did, on the French trip.
We didn't even so much as look at each other, felt totally awkward, and i dumped him on the way home by text. :s
That's what it would have been like with Nathan- i think. Or he'd just piss me off, IDK.
Anyway, Tyler then wnt over to Nathan and said, "I need to talk to you a second."
Then i said to Nathan, "Why don't you just ask me outright?"
And he said, "Will you go out with me?"
& i said, "No."
Damn, i'm such a bitch.
& then, on the way to Italian, Tyler asked me to go out with him.
I said No again.
I mean, a) I'm not a lesbian (Inside joke, Tyler is not a girl, btw.) (we think).
and b) I would never live down the fact that i dated a blonde,
and c) I am not in the least bit attracted to him.
then he started getting pervy, so i told him how that's one of the reasons i won't go out with him, so he said, "I CAN CHANGE!!"
Lets just hope he does.
You do not want to know what he can get up to with a xylophone stick unattended. I mean, he was, err, jabbing it in... at, i mean, us. Including Sean.
But yeah.
& also, i realized that Lee isn't actully that good looking. In the face department, Lewis is way better looking than him. I haven't seen Lewis topless (:/) but i'm guessing that no guy looks better topless than Lee. *remembers that amazing PE lesson*...
Juiced 9:01 am
Bahaha.
17/09/2009
I made Becca` laugh today.
Baha.
Sam walked up to me in tech, so i said, "Fuck off, Sam."
& Sam said, "Suck my dick."
& I said, "I don't wanna get aids."
You just got PWNED, Sam.
Juiced 2:07 pm
HOLY BEJESUS!
Why are people so STUPIDO?
Juiced 2:03 pm
TO THE PEOPLE I KNOW.
15/09/2009
Turns out that the best people always have the worst things happen to them.
Isn't that great?
Anyway, let's forget about the whole tragedy thing, and get on to what i wanted to tell Rhiannon and Daisy:
A) I will not be in school tomorrow. It's a family emergency- well, not really, i guess, but none of the school's buisness anyway, so i'm "at the dentist", okay?
B) Yeah, i will have to copy some of your PENIS homework. Wikipedia was a bit confusing.
C) Please can either Rhiannon or Daisy let me borrow their books for Blue Week Wednesday? I'm guessing i'll need to copy up.
D) I'll probably be pretty depressed from now on. I'd prefer it if you guys stick with me, but try not to make me laugh or whatever 'cause it pisses me off.
Thanks.
Juiced 12:37 pm
Biology.
So, i have to sit next to Brad and Sam.
Brad, who keeps asking me who got killed/beat up/robbed up Pant, and
Sam, who keeps saying, "Penis", "Bushy eyebrows", ect.
(Penis will be explained momentarily)
Bushy eyebrows was directed at Iestyn. Who keeps looking at me weird. I'm glad me and Rhiannon aren't the only ones who noticed the abnormally proportioned eyebrows.
And Penis? Baha. It's easier to write than say. But we are doing Human Reproduction in Biology, much to Caitlin's disgust. (She may be a homophobic lesbian.)
Today, we were looking at a diagram of the.. Male Reproduction System. Sam thought that it was his job to shout "Penis" at every 5 second interval. Oh, and the diagram looked like a guy waving if you turned it sideways. Bahaha.
I said to Rhiannon today, "I'm copying your PENIS homework, okay?"
BAHA.
Juiced 9:30 am
Rhiannon's STUPID mistake.
I faked a period to skip swimming, but Rhiannon is not as creative/retarded as me, so she did it.
Them, she took a century to dry her hair and get the hell out of the changing rooms.
Which i stayed in with her.
Then, Laurie came in, and said, "Oh, you missed Lee. He was topless."
ARGH.
Anyway, does anyone know when Lee's group are doing swimming?
Juiced 9:27 am
Pie Abusers & sunburns
14/09/2009
Pie abusers?
The story is simple.
We were doing unhealthy living in Bio, and Brad, Sam & Iestyn wrote down, well, how can i explain this...
"Pot head"
"Smack Head"
"Chocoholic"
"Pie Abuser"
"Couch Potatoe"
While the rest of us were talking about food groups.
Exept Liam, Who wrote on the board, "Americans".
Pahahaahahaha.
Sunburns?
The story is boring.
I went to Rhiannon's Brother's Rugby tournament.
Nah, i didn't want suncream, it made me feel "Icky".
And Rhiannon watched me get unsuspectingly burned alive while begging me for questions for an 8-hour game of "Would you rather". Eating a raw olive off Harry's shoulder was involved.
Now people are saying; "Nice holiday?" "I think you put too much blusher on your nose. Oh, and the rest of your face." "What's THAT?!" "What happened to your face?!" "What's that on your face?" "Ewwwwwww!".
:|
Juiced 12:21 pm
